Why Ask Why?

Yesterday, I was looking at my SquareSpace account analytics, and I noticed someone had visited the blog section of my site. I wondered why would anyone go to that section, especially looking at a clothing boutique website. It definitely piqued my interest and made me question myself as to why after 4 months there was still nothing there. I’ve never been a fan of writing my thoughts, but for the last two weeks God has been doing something new in me. 

I’ve been reflecting on how great God’s love is for me (The same is true for you). It all came to a head tonight while listening to “God on My Mind” by the Walls Group featuring Brandy (one of my favs since I was a young girl). The words of the song really resonated with me. The song is primarily about patience, contrasting the level of our patience with our Savior (or the lack of) and our Saviors patience with us. 

I started thinking about how I had really grown impatient with God for several years. I questioned God…the main recurring questions being why hadn’t I found the one. What’s the plan? How long do I have to wait? Being single is not an easy task, when you want to be married, but I noticed a transition in my spirit. 

I didn’t notice how busy I was and how drastically my mindset on dating/courting had changed until my friend asked me if I was ready to date. At first, I was a little salty (LOL), but then it made me think, again, right where He needed me to be. For the first time, I was truly able to say “I don’t have the time.” You see, as I mentioned yesterday in my Instagram post, my life is extremely busy, but busy in a good way. It was, then, that I realized that my focus had changed because God had placed me right where he wanted me to be….busy living out His purpose, busy falling in love with Him. I’m in a place of pure awe of Him. How he has closed doors (that truth be told needed to be closed) but opening way more doors. My God is so jealous for us that He would rather withhold something from us to force us to get closer to Him. Now, God is the true focus. He’s always on my mind, the only place He wants to be. 

I am confident that one day that I will be able to look back on the post and see yet once again how much He has moved. Marrying the man that God has selected just for me, but In His time though. So, why ask why when His plan is so much better. 

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

So, be encouraged my dear sisters. No matter what your why is, know that He is “doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:19

P.S. If you haven’t listened to Walls Group ft. Brandy, “God on My Mind,” it’s definitely worth a listen. It will definitely shift the atmosphere.


Confessions of a Sinner